[معلومات العضو heartbreaker]

Im lost in This misery with no sign of hope or light

No one to guide me in This darkness....

Days go by and im still standing in my place unable to move on fearing the worst

People judge me wrong , not knowing what im going through... not knowing who am i ....what person i am...

My heart has taken too much...

I bearly feel a pulse in my body...

Pain has taken control of my body.... running through my veins...

All the feelings i kept inside in the past is exploding in my cold human body...

Every one arround me think they know me....but they dont....even my friends....They dont feel , cuz i dont show....or maybe cuz i cant show

I let them see me all the time with a smile.....just to let them feel that everything is ok....not knowing that my smile is a fake mask that hides behind it dieing screams

How much can i hold to that smile before it turns to rolling tear that i cant stop from droping

Sadly , what i hide into my smile reveals through my eyes what drives me looking away and travel through my mind just to find a peacfull place just to let me forget my pain for a sec and get back to life again...

My anger struggels inside of me like a wild beast.....

A wild beast that i have buried inside long ago fearing it may break out and control me in a moment of inside weaknes...

I dont know how much i can take before i give up .....

I dont know in what purpose i have been held This curse of living in This hell of pain

I dont know why i have been held all those feeling....or for who....

All these questions pass through my mind like flashing pictures of my past

Leaving me in despret need to answers i CANT get..

I feel like an angel who had his wings ripped off....

And left without soul....

Only one special person from This world can help me....Unlock me...Feel me

And Love me...

ppl think they know life and how to deal with it

Well they havent known me

I simply dont know what i am
but i know who i am unlike others



im Heartbreaker

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This is my life < Me